“In hope against hope he (Abraham) believed, so that he might become a father of many nations according to that which had been spoken, “So shall your descendants be.” Without becoming weak in faith he contemplated his own body, now as good as dead since he was about a hundred years old, and the deadness of Sarah’s womb; yet, with respect to the promise of God, he did not waver in unbelief but grew strong in faith, giving glory to God, and being fully assured that what God had promised, He was able also to perform.” (Romans 4:18-21)
I have been thinking about these verses a lot lately as they relate to our adoption journey. I have wondered many times what Abraham thought when the Lord promised him a multitude of descendants when he and Sarah were still a childless couple. How often did he have to comfort his wife? How many prayers were prayed? How many tears were shed?
My prayer recently has been that I would not waver in my belief. In God’s perfect timing, He will bring our son or daughter home. I must be assured of that! It is our desire that God would work in a way that brings Him the most honor and glory. We want our children to see that growing a family is a God-thing. We have been reminded again and again and again that only the Lord is sovereign. There have been so many challenges with our adoption process. They tell you to expect setbacks and bumps in the road. Phil and I have experienced craters in the road! We have heard our agency tell us twice now, “that has never happened before”. A dear friend of mine told me several times during their journey that adoption is a battle. And I wholeheartedly agree! It’s not a battle with the government or red tape or lawyers (though it feels like that at times). But a battle against the one that does not want us to bring a child into a God-fearing home. A battle to rescue our child from a life of poverty, deprivation, and harm. A battle to believe and hope that God is worthy of His word. He has called us to be parents. If not, we would have quit this journey many, many months ago. We hope to show our children that God’s timing and His way of working is always best. It’s worth the wait for God’s best! The challenges and obstacles that we have encountered are nothing in comparison to the greatness, might, and power of our God. He is the Creator and Sustainer of the universe! He knows the number of gray hairs on my head and the number of stars in the sky. I can’t wait to teach our children the glorious truths about who God is and how He works. Until they are brought home, I will keep praying for endurance and joy in the waiting.